So, I've been wondering (this is more of a freefall sort of entry, so if you're expecting something ordenate and articulate, I'm sorry to dissapoint you)....Anyways I've been thinking about what this year has been like for me in terms of relationships. I don't think I've ever gone out with as many people on a given year in all my life. It feels as though I've learned so much more about myself. I've learned to put myself out there more, to take risks, but also to assess myself. And I've had loads of fun in the process. What I feel I need to do now is be more assertive and really be even more honest with myself. Cuz this year I really did try all the ways to be in relationships. Tried monogamy, tried casual dating, tried poliamory, tried leaving my ex, tried getting back together, tried making it work, tried letting go. I've also built strong and healthy friendships, expressed my desires and opened up a lot to new experiences. I've indulged in ...
Feel the need to blog, close to the end of 2019. It's been a while. Sometimes I feel like I put my life on hold. Right now I have this intense feeling of a really intense connection with myself, and a broader sense of myself, who I am and what I want. I've always been a sort of odd explorer, trying to not stay in the same place for too long, be it a house, appartment, or relationship, but also taking my time to leave, even though the expiration date has been long due. Seem like the words are kind of hard to find, trying to flow with some sort of spontinaeity but also coherence. In a nutshell it has been quite a year, don't know how it stands at the end of the year between self growth and self dissapointment and struggles. Well, the struggles will always be there. What changes is how we perceive them and what we do with them. So today after the longest time I decided to look up an ex and an ex crush on Google. People I haven't seen in over 10, even 12 yea...