So, I've been wondering (this is more of a freefall sort of entry, so if you're expecting something ordenate and articulate, I'm sorry to dissapoint you)....Anyways I've been thinking about what this year has been like for me in terms of relationships. I don't think I've ever gone out with as many people on a given year in all my life. It feels as though I've learned so much more about myself. I've learned to put myself out there more, to take risks, but also to assess myself. And I've had loads of fun in the process. What I feel I need to do now is be more assertive and really be even more honest with myself. Cuz this year I really did try all the ways to be in relationships. Tried monogamy, tried casual dating, tried poliamory, tried leaving my ex, tried getting back together, tried making it work, tried letting go. I've also built strong and healthy friendships, expressed my desires and opened up a lot to new experiences. I've indulged in my desires, and also felt a lot of emotional intimacy. So to wrap this year up on an emotional level, I feel I still have one more thing to do and it is def related to letting go...so I think that's the hardest lesson. Will possibly update soon enough.